MY CHRISTMAS TREE

Oh yeah, christmas is just around the corner and everyone's busy with stuffs like,booking their flights back home town, buying christmas presents, planning which church to go to etc. I myself am picking up the pieces of a broken heart. And I must admit I am doing quite well.

I have started dating again and its kinda funny but somehow or rather one or two gave me the vibes. Ssshh..we don't kiss and tell who. So, I am going to spend more time with friends this Christmas and New Year but then again, I have always been even when I was attached. The love we get from friends is different but nevertheless genuine and honest..I'll take it any day. This year, I am planning to give more..

Here I am sitting comfortably in my own office, looking out at the window. Sounds of pitter patter on the window, as it drizzles so lightly. So, I am blessed with a great job & good pay but I do feel sometimes that even my close friends think I grew up with a silver spoon in my mouth. Contrary to that, I was brought up very poor. We never had a christmas tree or celebration of that sort until I was in my teens. Even then we didnt have presents just empty boxes and a dead tree from last year. We had eggs, boiled chicken & kangkong for Christmas dinner. But we were happy. I remembered when I was three, we lived in Papar in an old shack, where you can literally see through the floor and bamboo walls. I never knew what Christmas was. We sold melons and peanuts to school children passing though our old house. And when we moved to Kg.Dabak, Penampang, our home was slightly upgraded to a 2 bedroom wooden house. I remembered putting cotton on plants imagining it was a christmas tree. There weren't any presents but I remembered my mom slaughtering a chicken and we had chicken for Christmas. Dad was only making $700 a month with 4 mouths to feed.

Those days are gone but still a vivid & pleasant, yes,pleasant memory. Years later, I studied hard and got good grades and furthered my studies to UITM and then to Liverpool,UK. I worked hard since then and I am blessed because I am here now and thank Lord Jesus for his blessings. Under my Christmas tree this year, I have presents to give,..a bit of possessions to give to those who truly deserve it. I have love, and I will give to those who truly wants my heart and expect nothing in return. And my warmest wish to all a wonderful peaceful Christmas. God Bless.

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL..

THE PUB, THE SUNSET & THE CLOSURE

Sometimes we take life for granted. And in my case I probably did. It is true that love hurts and most time it hurts badly. I initially couldn't even register what went wrong when this were doing well. Then I realised that it was not me. Love is gone. It's a great feeling the way how we first met & talked. Never realising that it was the beginning of a beautiful 3 year relationship. I remembered every single moments that we had shared, places gone, things done together. The other great thing was that there weren't any constant bickerings. Yeah sure there were small misagreement but even that lasted longest 30minutes. 5 arguments we had in 3 years. Was that the reason why a relationship ends? There were questions in the initial part of the separation but eventually I stopped asking.

Nevertheless, I finally let go. We do not own people, their minds, their choices in life. We merely choose to live and be with them, sharing experiences and intimate moments. We had our Kalansanan, Mansau, Manila, Cebu, scuba diving, birthday in Sipadan. We had our sunset framed, we had kids whom we love. We have friends most of all. I had two choices. To leave and leave everything behind and changes everything or to remain friends and respect ones decision, to love someone else. Sure, i will never receive text messages at 6:30am to wake me up for work, messages saying 'mahal kita', simple messages like 'don't forget to eat'..those are the things that I have to accept,..gone. Will I miss those simple gestures, simple texts? I definitely will.

I am too tired to find another love. It's to time tasking & I am not going any younger. I have given up on love coz love has given up on me. I simply have to move on with my life alone along a journey that I am looking forward to. Although everywhere I go, everything I see will reminisce the times we were together. I know myself well. This chapter in my life is finally closed and shelved. I will always love you for as long as the waves still hit the shore, as long as there is sunset. My wings may be broken but I will not stop singing, living. Mahal kita pagibig ko sa iyo. Ikaw lamang ang pag-ibig sa aking buhay. At kung kailangan mo ako, makikita ko dito ay naghihintay. I will wait for you. My final closure.

Our Sunset taken 21st Oct 2007

DIRTY PAW & WET BLANKET -Chapter One

CHAPTER ONE

She was scratching excessively and seemed unstoppable when she starts whilst making that weird sound. Yuki was having a bad case of eczema due her being a very sensitive pooch. The sound? Oh..well it sounded as if she was making chicken mushroom soup and the bubbling of the boiling soup was near similar, well to me anyway. I had to wake up to find out how she was. 3:00am, great. There goes my beauty rest, abruptly challenged. “Hi princess, you o.k?” as she wagged her tail in delight. I blindly made myself out of the bedroom towards the bathroom where I kept her skin spray. Poor Yuki, being a Japanese Spitz, still not being accustomed to being ‘naked’. The vet had to shave her beautiful, white long coat due to her skin problem. Spraying her back lightly and giving her a nice rub, I left my little Sinead O’Connor back to her slumber beside my bed. Not even bothering to wash my hands, I dozed off.

“Now the best place to go scuba diving in Greece is near the ..” Tit, tit, tit, tit……( I don’t mean one heap of breast).. The alarm went off. I was in Greece with my friend Romeo, scuba diving..muck diving to be exact. Damn, it was a dream. Funny how you tend to incorporate the sounds of your real surroundings into your dream. Remember how you also dreamt of having a pee in the loo and you are actually doing it in bed. Well, that’s another story. It was 5:00am and I have to catch a plane back to work. Opening the door, I braced myself as I knew the rest of the bunch would jump onto me. Rex was the first to jump and followed by the rest, Rocky, Sisqo & Angelo. Hell yeah, 5 dogs. They get extremely excited early in the mornings and then they’d run into the living as if they were looking for something. Rubbing my eyes and scratching my privates, I walked to the door to release the highly excited canines out to relieve themselves. I’ve trained them since they were small, house train them. It took me an average of 2 weeks to train them not to poo-poo and pee-pee in the house. The house smelt of a bad day at the public toilet then but things are much better now. Much, much better rather.

After getting made up and dressed, I woke Romeo up. He had no choice but to send me off to the airport that early. I thank him for being there to take care of the house and the dogs. Aren’t that what housemates are trained for? Bless him. Slamming the door shut, I headed to the check in counter and queued up behind a group of tourists, English. Southern accent. Hmm.. must be from Essex, London or Sussex probably. Having been in the British isle for over four years, I somehow thank my innate inquisitive self. I shared an apartment with a Scot and a scouser (a Liverpool guy). Inquisitive.. well checking out all the clubs and pubs in the whole bloody England is inquisitive right? A whole new perspective I guess. “Please God, don’t let me sit next to someone with bad BO, and I promise to be nice to people for the rest of the day.” That’s a routine I always do before boarding a plane. I’m not being discriminating towards people who believe in keeping their own environment as natural as possible. No, I’m not. I just happened to detest the yield of their so call believe! Oh come on people! Have you not heard or seen adverts of beautiful models slowly gliding their well waxed pits with deodorant? Do I need to purposely gag when you smell and sitting next to me? Do I need to waste my food by regurgitating in front of people and embarrass myself? Lindsay Lohan would have nodding with approval I suppose. Was she the bulimic one? I sat alone. God loves me! Thank you.

CAPE TOWN, SOUTH AFRICA

I left KK on the 9th May 2009, and took a flight to KL. My flight to South Africa is at 1:20am.. The flight transit at Johannesburg. When we reached there it was 6am. I had like 2 hours sleep..Cool it was. Then we flew to Cape Town after 1:45 mins. Cape town is gorgeous! The houses namely are beautiful, reminds me of Bondi Beach, sydney. Must go back there.

We started at Table Mountain,..brilliant view and taking the cable car was an experience. Apparently it is one of the 3 fastest cable car in the world and daymn, was it fast! The best thing bout it was it also rotates from inside so everyone has equal chance to enjoy the view 360.

Then it was to a garden called Kirstenbosch for lunch. Ok lah..food not too bad. After that we headed to the hotel to check in..heard me right. I only checked in after 5pm. Later that night we had dinner. Then me and few friends decided to go to Camps Bay and party!! very nice..in fact ..fantastico! I was so dressed up that Jay Alexander from ANTM would have been proud but.. it was a beach party sunday and everyone was wearing casual..talk about feeling out of place. Man..

Day 2: We went to see some seals & penguins. I'm talking about real animals and not the singer Seal and Danny Devito.. although having them around would have made things more memorable. Anyway,..Seal Island is populated with over 50,000 seals,..that's a hell lot of handbags! And,.. apparently the Great White Shark's feeding ground..Yess!! But no... no sharks that day but the view was spectacular nevertheless. And yours truly got a chance to hug a big fat male seal named Pretty Boy.. a very furry boy I must say.

After that we're off to see Happy Feet! Yup..there were many penguins..I kinda find them really cute,..I love dogs more but they are a bunch of cuddles. So I took some shots of these cute, 12 inch animal.

Day 3: Game Reserve, Safari. We took a 2 hour drive to the game reserve to see the Big 5, Lion, Rhino, Elephant... Yes that was three becoz I couldn't remember the last 2..I believe they are Hippos and Zebra?? not too sure.

Day 4: The Winery..my favourite. I actually got tipsy by 2pm after doing the wine tasting. What a wonderful day it was.. The evning was a blast as we headed to Long Street,..where the bars & pubs are. We were recommended to go to club named Chrome. Imagine, oen shot cost about Rd 1.00, that's RM0.50 per hard liquor shot!!! Knowing me..I ordered 10 shots and got myself into much trouble. we danced hard and I ended up having my head suffocated between two heaps of mountainous African breast. I can't remember her name.

Day 5: Nursing a slight hangover..we left Cape Town around 7 am. With me having only 2 hours sleep. And to make things worse..I didn't even sleep in the plane. Watched, Red Cliff2, Ipman & a Korean movie called ESP Coules.. there you go.

I'M STILL SICK!

Today I went to KB with Mesh becoz I'm trying so hard to fight this sickness. I am fever, flu, bad coughing and bodyaches since wednesday. My medication from the doctor has finished and I'm still having on & off fever, chills now and again. My cough was so bad that my throat bled and now it freaking hurts. After coming back from KB (ohh I bought honey..to soothe my throat)..we went to Donggongon to see the doctor again after having dinner. I had a nice chicken lihing soup..yuumm.. Apparently, the Tagal Festival was on today at Buhavan Square, so there were hundreds of people anxiously waitig or the Rainforest beauties to start parading their stuff. Then we met Mamai & Tom, also happened to be there too. Gogds was there too, busy snapping pictures.

Soon after, I went to see the doctor and told him that I'm still not well. Sure enough, I still have fever even after 4 days! He asked me a questioned which dreaded but was playing on my mind. "Are there any dengue/malaria cases at your place?" Daymn,..! Apparently, having on & off fever is a symptom of malaria!! Oh man! But he quicky assured me that having a cough may rule the disease out..but... if the sickness persist even after completion my second dose of medication, I need to go for a blood test. Shit! I hope I dont need to.

Well, going to bed now coz I'll be flying back to Sandakan tomorrow morning. But I'll be back again on wednesday..(Yes!) meeting 2 days. Then weekend will be aramai tii weekend..(need catching up to do).. Bye.

"Love For All, hatred To None"

Animal Moments

NO MORE BEER

No more alcoholic beverages for that matter. I thought I was in good control,sometimes we think we do but the fact is,the alcohol wins. I made the most horrible & disrecpectful remark to my closest friend,my best friend.

I believe our closest friends, our best buddies are like corals. Always take care of them and not destroy the relationship. Coz once it's destroyed then it may sometimes take time to heal..huhu... One simply remark can hurt so much.. I regret that so much.

Sure, the coke may make me grumpy but at least I'm not hurting anyone's feelings. So,I'm going to try my best and keep it off my system. Unless.... i am forgiven..truly forgiven than maybe I might drink... buli kah ni..?

No Shopping Mall in Sandakan

Old colonial shoplots along Bandar Leila, Jalan Leila.

The only cinema complex in Sandakan, across my office & the only Bowling Center.

Bus Terminal in Sandakan Town.

New rows of shoplots in town.

Harbour Square Shopping Mall..?? Only cranes..no building yet.

Old town Sandakan.

Sandakan Town.


Can you believe it? I have been transferred (to work) in Sandakan coming to 3 years and yet I have not seen any shopping malls. I'm from Penampang, well actually my mom is from Sandakanand my dad is from Penampang but now we all live in Penampang..anyways,.. Even in Donggongon we have a huge shopping mall,the Mega Long Mall. If Musa Aman is reading this(as if..hahaha)..please do something. Sandakan apparently has a higher population than Penampang and yet we have one mall here. The Harbour Square in Sandakan Town is not even 1/4 done.. sian kan. Everyone here flocked Servay supermarket to buy their latest underwer, the best branded shirtlike EZ(Emmer Zecna),..oh yes,..Sandakan has that too..

Maybe that is why I'm bored in Sandakan coz I have no where to go on weekends. I have seen my cousins Ungah, Joruk & Lumbidong..the orang utans more than 3 times. Even they themselves are bored,..no wifi, no McD, No iceblended.. Ask Arteo,he is 'dying' in Beluran. But having said that, I go back to Penampang weekly because of my precious..my dogs..koupusan ku..giteewww.. As soon as I reach home they'll be jumping on me, nibbling my bits(hahaha..), licking my face etc. Those who are married with a husband or wife would be lucky enough to even get a hug & kiss from them after a week away, every week for 3 years.. That's why I love dogs. They do not judge and they will always remember your kindness, appreciate your presence.. no matter how sometimes you get mad at them, they forgive you within 3 seconds.. Now I'm missing my babies..huhuhu..Those who have dogs understands me well, Josie, Mesh, Tompok..they know.

Sea Food Ba Kut Teh- Bandar Nam Tung.

Sandakan Hotel - Dimsum

Dried/Salted Fish at Bandar Nam Tung/Tanah Merah.

Another famous Seafood Ba Kut Teh outlet at Bandar Nam Tung.


Anyway,..sidelined for a sec there.. So,Mr.CM..is Sandakan going to be the hometown you are going to be prouder of? Prouder because Sandakan does have Sepilok, Sukau, Kinabatangan, Gomantong caves, the Turtle Islands in Selingan..hmm what else. Oh, seafood Bak Kut Teh and crazy dimsum in Hotel Sandakan. Ask Stephany, sister of Lumis..in fact ask Lumis,we had breakfast there once. Now I'm hungry..jom makan dulu.

That's all for now I guess. Cheers..

Playing Tennis In Sandakan

Back in Sandakan..and the only activity to keep me fit is tennis.But, will go to the gym as well. Maybe later I'll find Danny Malinggi if he's around...hmm... But didn't worked out that way.

I was already out driving out of my office's parking lot when I left my tennis racquet in my office. Looking at the rear view mirror,there was nothing as I, thought, I was the last one parked there not noticing my staff's car,a Kelisa. Guess what happened,I reversed back towards the main entrance and my staff reversed his car out and we collided. Bamm! My bumper's busted and my staff's Kelisa's taillamp was broken ..shit! Not really a bad accident but enough to cost me RM100 for a new tail lamp..f&*k!! I apologised to him and promised him a new lamp tomorrow.

I spent 10 minutes cursing myself for being careless,.anyway..I drove to Mile 2 Jalan Utara,Sandakan..to my tennis club. Changed my attire and started playing for an hour plus. Then after that I headed to Kompleks Indah Jaya at mile 4 tomy local gym. I didn't spend too much time there,maybe 45mins only as do not want to overworkmy body. I still need to go tomorrow.

After the gym,I ended up going to this burger stall, the best in Sandakan at Bandar Indah. I got two burger special at RM2.50. That's my dinner. I'msuch a pig.. I forgot all about the accident. Well it happened and there's nothing I can do to reverse it..live on junior.

Then I realised one of my housemate Zul, I call him Mr.Boxers,(coz he always wears boxers in the apartment)is no more there.. he was transferred back to KK. What about me!!?? I need a cigi ,..quick. But this Nicole Kidman's movie 'The Interpreter' distracted me from smoking.. Now I'm posting this blog,evidently the movie's ended. And so is this blog.. nite y'all.....ooohh,..didn't I say I was looking for Danny??

Touch My Body

ootuuukkkoii....!!!

Vacation In Cebu,Philippines

Date: 12th Feb - 15th Feb 2009. It was my first time in Cebu but it was great.I did some shopping, sightseeing, clubbing and the massage is damn cheap PHP200 (RM15)..

CLOSING...

Vacation In Cebu, Philippines

10 days to go!! I'll be going to Cebu, Philippines with my staff and Mesh coming along as well. We'll be going on the 12th Feb 2009.. yippee!! Can't wait coz me& Mesh will be going to Mactan Island to scuba dive. Funny enough,I have made calls upI haven't confirmed any yet. But surely are doing it. I suppose 2 dives would suffice.

Other than that we will be doing some sight seeing as well. Maybe see the Magellan Cross,Fort San Pedro, the city iself, Fuente Osmena etc. Definitely loads of pics. Night life,city lights, San Miguel here I come! So watch this space.

Tagged by Ham...

RULES:
~ Bold the statements that are true for you. Italicise the statements that you wish are true. Leave the fibs alone. Then, tag 5 people to do the same test~


I miss somebody right now.
I love vacation.
I bake a cake.
I do not watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I am married.
I have tried marijuana.
I still love with my ex-boyfriend/girlfriend.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I’m totally smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I am a millionaire.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I am a pretty good dancer.
I love sex. hhahhahahaa...yes
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I am not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before. ..are u crazy!!??
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I love to chat (YM/MSN/etc..)
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with girls.
I’m obsessed with boys.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve written in.
I can’t stick to a diet. I talk in my sleep.
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I have kids.
I feel sad sometimes.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I love being happy.
I am on diet.

Sabahan MakeUp Artist_Part 1 Wedding

I am going to be so 'hated' by several local makeup artist in Sabah,particularly in KK. I mean who am I to judge them right? Wrong! Everyone is judging them. My main question to them is, do you guys live in the year 2009? Ok let's say 2008? I am doing freelance photography and have been to weddings. But why,? Oh why? do all the brides look like as if they are ready to go to do a broadway musical or perform in a dramatic arts consert? Their makeups are horrendous.

Makeup & False eye lashes
What's up with the heavy eyeshadows, shaded contoured nose bridges, big false lashes (so 90's!)...Have you heard of low density false lashes or individual false lash? They willgive the brides a more natural looking lash. Did you know you guys are using almost the same cheap false lashes when it was first invented in 1916by D.W Griffith? or maybe not.But it is so 1960's.

Surf The Net for Latest Trend
I think these makeup artist should flip through some bridal magazines. Did you know that a wedding is suppose to be beautiful. Heavy makeup makes the bride look like 'the bride of Frankenstein!'. The trend started in 2005,where minimal,natural make up is the best wedding makeup. Don't get stuck in a time warp!

How make of us go to a wedding and cringed looking at the bride while saying 'OMG! what's with the heavy makeup?' We all do that all the time.. Next question would be, "who did the makeup?" then we responded "oh". Wake up guys!!!! Dark drown shadows, heavy eye shadows, coaled eyes, contoured nose bridge, false lashes,heavily lined lips are out!!

Natural Beauty vs Current style.
What's in? Natural,light makeup that accentuates the bride's natural beauty. That is high fashion! Remember, that her husband married her for how she looks naturally. Most husband got a bit shellshocked to see her made up bride of Frankenstein. Come on Sabahan makeup artist,.. start moving forward. The brides are not performers getting ready for a live show! Day makeup at the church should be light and natural. Evening dinner reception makeup should be,well,.. evening makeup, 'slightly' tronger hues shadows.. Guys..sometimes Less is More! Don't believe me... take the challenge. Do one sampe bridal makeup on the same girl; one with your normal heavy makeup & one with natural light makeup. Take both photos and see which one is bridal best.

Here are some photos of gorgeous bridal photos.

My Life Would Suck Without You_ Clarkson single's long leap sets chart record

NEW YORK (Billboard) - Pop-rock singer Kelly Clarkson, the original "American Idol," will make history on this week's Billboard Hot 100 with the largest leap to No. 1 in the singles chart's 50-year history.

Her new single, "My Life Would Suck Without You," is set to rocket from No. 97 to the top rung after selling 280,000 digital downloads in its first week of availability. The new Hot 100 will be posted Thursday (January 29) on Billboard.com.

"My Life" introduces Clarkson's March 17 album, "All I Ever Wanted."

This is the second time she has set the record for largest jump to No. 1. She took her 2002 "American Idol" victory song, "A Moment Like This," from No. 52 to No. 1 on the chart dated October 5, 2002.

That feat was uncontested for nearly five years, until Maroon 5 soared from No. 64 to the peak with "Makes Me Wonder" in May 2007. The record has been broken four more times since, most recently by Britney Spears' "Womanizer," which leaped from No. 96.

"My Life" is Clarkson's first No. 1 since her debut single, though she has placed six other songs in the top 10, including the No. 2-peaking "Since U Been Gone" in April 2005.

Reuters/Billboard

Big Mouth!!

OMG! this is crazy!!

Hunter's Lounge Karaoke Contest

My Resolution

So what's a Resolution?
1) The state or quality of being resolute; firm determination.
2) A resolving to do something.
3) A course of action determined or decided on.

I have made many of these stuffs back when I younger but nowadays, the last 3 years of my life I have decided not to have any, so to speak. 2009..I intend to live the best of my life! Believe it or not I decided to move out of my 'shell'. Things like, how I wanted to look good and look fitter and camera perfect. I wanted to update my handphone, buying a new one each year. To be in the limelight. To be seen intelligent. That was before. Now I just want to be healthy, to eat well, sleep well, detox myself when I can. I thank and appreciate GOD for giving me this body, the body that had withstand pain, hunger, fatigue, overeating, overdrinking, constant abuses etc. This body is mine and it has not failed me and I praise my body for having to bear with my overzealous needs in life.

2009, will be the year where I no longer have the need to look 'beautiful' for people to see, to look photo perfect... I just want to look healthy, be healthy, now. I recently cropped my hair and Mesh asked, 'why did you do it?' I'm somewhat more realistic & being practical, I think. It's so much easier to maintain it now. When we spend so much time getting made up for work, I believe it does resonate in our personality at the end of the day. I try not to make it as a religion. To me true religion is really living life; living with all your love, life & soul, with all one's goodness and righteousness. Sound fulfilling to me. Maybe no to some.

So, I'm not going to waste time on worrying about how I look like anymore. I look just fine. I'm not going to worry so much on getting a big fat belly. If I manage my food and enjoy my activities,..then I am fine. I'm not going to worry if my loved ones are giving me the right kind of love, the quality that it is expected by society.. as long as I give them mine,..then I am fine. If I spend enough time for those I love, things I cherish,..then I'm fine. Because time is but a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived.

Happy New Year all & have a wonderful time enjoying it...now that's my resolution!

My Christmas 2008

We had our traditional Chrismas Eve family dinner on the 24th dec. Everyone, except my younger sister Adalita is in North carolina, USA was present. But we did a video conference so its not too bad. After that it's the traditional open of Xmas presents by the kids at midnight. On Christmas day, the 25th dec, for the first time ever my family members from my mom's side (mainly from Sandakan) came and a did a potluck BBQ from 3pm to midnight. yup,..my mom is from Sandakan. Imagine, my uncles got drunk and started arguing & fighting.. duuii.. After that someone started crying,..then my auntie cried..oh dear, alcohol makes some people cry I guess.. But me, my brother & my sisters went to my eldest sister's house in hungab for a quiet christmas dinner and left everyone at my family house. Relax sikit.. But I had too much vodka I guess.