So now what? I am officially unemployed for the first time since 2000 where I was unemployed for 3 months. That was not so pleasant.
However, I do not consider myself unemployed, rather, self-employed fits me more. I'm doing emceeing, events and have a greater time to explore my passion in photography. Firstly, I need a good facial, full body massage, manicure and some good deserve 8 hour sleep. Don't get me wrong. It's not that I'm insomniac but rather I tend to have lack of sleep, between 5 - 7 hours only.
I will tend to my blog more often now as I am now a man of leisure. Bliss. Nevertheless, I think I must get my priorities right though. My car porch is long overdue with the laying of new tiles. Ceiling needs fixing and the roof needs to be repaired soonest.
But until then, I am going to take my time and enjoy life.
My boss yelled at me today. And it was something not of my doing. I had a choice to either fight back or let him vent it all out on me and not letting it bother me. Well, easier said than done. However, I am glad that I am not the person who keeps anger and negativity in me that much or for a long period of time. Being human it is only natural that we turn our modes into a defensive one and having to deal with negative words or being yell at, insulted or humiliated; these are the basic ingredients that will snap you into the said mode and the reaction to that would be anger. If I were to have superpowers and a could channel negative energies to anything I touch, then a nice beautiful flower would probably wither and die in an instant. And turn into dust! That was how I felt for the first 15 minutes.
I believe that if one is angry, it is crucial to learn to let go as soon as possible. The longer you keep that anger or negativity inside, the worse it will feel. Let's take this analogy. Anger or grudges or anything negative in that circle, is like fresh rubbish. Rubbish you have just collected. Now, imagine keeping that rubbish binned, in your kitchen for few days or even a week. I bet your kitchen would stink like a huge dumping site. Your dog wouldn't even dare to walk in the kitchen. Any bird flying across would fall dead. Shrek would slap himself for smelling nicer. Anger & negativity are like that. Let them go immediately. And, when you are angry, in this case that smelly rubbish bin; whatever you do, do not open your mouth or it shall smell! What I'm saying is, whatever that comes from your mouth will stink, hurt someone and you may regret doing so.
I guess it does take time to master this exercise. I have been doing this for a while so, it doesn't take me much effort. But having said that, I do get upset or anger but it normally last no longer than 30 mins. It takes more energy to be anger, holding a grudge. Not forgetting the headache that comes with it. Let it go. You will avoid having to spend loads of money in wrinkle creams or anti aging serums.
It's 2012. In 1990 I had my first relationship which lasted for a long 8 years until we drifted apart amicably. But has changed? I wished relationship are like cellphones. It improves in time, gets more high tech, less hassle and user friendly. I think relationships, the whole concept of it never did change so much, ever!
We sometimes try to be tactful and diplomatic as we age but it takes two to tango. I may have evolved or change to be a better man in the whole relationship thing but when your partner is not in sync and has his or her own beliefs and rationale then it will just not work. Being in a relationship to me is like a career. You need to work on it everyday in order to reap its sweet fruit. Careerwise, you get money, financial support. In relationships, you get emotional stability, security, emotional support, love and sex. I think no matter how hard you try to be a better person and make things work, if the other half thinks otherwise and does not go into the same wavelength as you are then it is going to be a losing battle. Wait let me rephrase that, a losing effort. Relationships is all about efforts. Some have to make bigger efforts to make it work, some fortunate soul makes a little and voila, all is great.
In my case, when you are in a long distance relationship, paranoia comes into play. Yes i was naughty in my past when i was single and enjoying life on my own. People tends to bring back the past, the long lost uneventful history into the now. And what do you get? Heartaches & headaches. Sigh... I am trying to be accepting too. It is sometimes a struggle if the words you are thrown at are just painful sometimes. I am a man, a grown man so I have to accept them. Take it like a man. But men have feelings too. It's so intriguing when one minute everything is sweet and lovey dovey. And next thing your partner throws in a mind boggling text message and changes things. I am an uncomplicated guy who lives in a simple life. When you have texted I love yous and I miss yous, aren't those enough for the day? I guess to some it is not. Those words need to be said and texted more than once a day, otherwise you are deemed as being not a good lover.
I am struggling to keep up being up to standard. But being a busy guy, I believe texting one 'love you' a day will suffice. Your partner needs to understand that otherwise it will just turn nasty. She/he wants at least 3-4 times a day. Is that paranoia? Is that low esteem? I'm not too sure but it is bugging me. Right now, I'll just carry on moving forward to the best ability.
" I think about that sometimes - learning to play in a parking lot, stringing nets between cars. I learned to play by hitting against a brick wall, not a ball machine or other players. And my Father was my coach - teaching me from a twenty year-old book. When I hear people say that you can't make it in tennis if you don't have a lot of money, I know they're wrong. We didn't have much money. But I loved the sport and that was enough." - Monica Seles -
In Bed With Rex
Hmm..daddys bed is so much better than mine..!
Aww..he was 3 months then..
Rex & Bobbi
Playtime..I like this caviar taste tennis ball..yumm.. Not. Goku stop scratching Rex's butt!